- my incision has been sore all day today, I'm terrified it is infected again (crazy thought I'm sure, it is a different feeling than the infection- I think it is really just healing)
- I am scared to get back on the scale because I might not still be in the 180somethings
- the day after my infection was discovered I felt scared, alone and depressed despite the fact I had the support of my wonderful husband family and bloggy friends (what is wrong with me?)
- my band has been gone for 13 days, I still pretend like it is inside me, like maybe Dr. B was just kidding and he didn't really take it out right?
- I am uber excited about BOOBs 2.o, I'm going to get a tattoo while I am there this year!
- I ate 3 cookies yesterday
- I ate 1 cookie today (now you see why I am scared of getting on the scale, no?)
- I sometimes cry when I see someone on TV going through or talking about a difficult time in their life or an obstacle they have overcome
- I am super nervous about doing a triathlon this August- aaaaagh!
- I'm considering going back to grad school for a second degree or a PhD. Dr. Jen sounds good right?
- I love going to garage sales and buying things off craigslist
- I have to write on my hand to remember things that are very important to do right away, yet I have a photographic memory and can often answer most of the questions on Jeopardy
Enough rambling for now... hope you are all having a happy hump day :)
I was thinking about getting a tattoo at BOOBs, too. What should we get? :D
ReplyDeleteAnd Dr. Jen DOES have a nice ring to it.
Dr. Jen sounds awesome!
ReplyDeleteYou should totally go on Jeopardy, win lots of money and share with your blogger friends!
Dr. Jen sounds great!!
ReplyDeleteDon't be scared babydoll. It is all going to be fine. I know it's hard right now...but you are a fighter and nothing is going to stop you.
I think there are one or two others who want to get a tat at BOOBS. I know Rani (from Dubai) got one last year. I'll ask her where she went...maybe I'll get one with you!
ReplyDeleteI think to be nervous about the insicion becoming infected again is completely normal. I totally agree with getting a tat in Chicago!
ReplyDeleteThat's awesome about your memory!
I think Dr. Jen sounds great! You'll get through these next few months unbanded. Keep blogging as that, to me, is the key to success. You'll stay motivated and accountable. If you gain some weight back, you know how to lose it. Imagine your band is still there. Believe me, it works. I was unbanded 2 x this year for a total of about 12 weeks. I ate like I had a filled band about 90% of the time and I went up and down 2-3 lbs but basically I started this year at 163 and I am currently sitting at 160.
ReplyDeleteMost of all, know we are always here to "confess" to! Love you too....we'll get through this Jen!
I agree with Jacquie. Keep blogging, and I don't think it is wrong to pretend the band is still there... in some ways-- maybe there is some scar tissue or something that will be there keeping some of your hunger at bay.
ReplyDeleteWhatever works, baby. You just keep on keeping on.
I totally get crying when you see something about some adversity on TV shows-- I believe that reaction is not at all uncommon. You are going through a stressful time, and so your feelings are raw and on the surface... hang in there, you're going to feel better soon and then, as I like to say, the smoke will clear and you'll get a feel for your next steps.
Feel good and KILL that infection 'power Jen' (I like the sound of that)!!!