I am hiding from the fact that I am now gaining instead of losing. I am nearly 10lbs up from my lowest.
What is my deal!?!?!
I don't weigh in daily like I used to. .. I cry myself to sleep.
I hope I can do what I know I need to do! I know I can, but will I?
This is not part of my plan. : ( I need my band right now so much. whyme? whyme?whyme!!! ugh.
can I do this? i really hope so....
Bullshit and Some Truth
7 years ago
Awwww. I am so sorry about all of this. Are you back and consulting with your weight loss surgeon about your options ? I forget exactly where you're at.
ReplyDeleteI think they gave you some appetite suppressants-- are you using those to any effect?
DON'T GIVE UP! You have nothing to be ashamed of... just go ask for more help and see what's next for you.
And did I mention, DON'T GIVE UP.
Just a thought: since you don't have the band, and you can eat without any restriction, maybe try to do a 'bridge' technique-- like "before I can eat THIS food, I need to eat ALL of THAT food?"
Example:
Before I can go get a fast food meal, I must eat 3 cups of lettuce?
Perhaps if you make a rule like that and try to follow it- you might put some external stops on yourself and also fill up on healthy greens.... This is a long ago suggestion from a nutritionist I used, can't say it worked forever, but probably got me out of a few 'cravings' binds....
Hang in there and keep posting. Loves you!!
I feel your pain Jen. I too had my band removed in October and I am trying to eat the same way I did with the band. I am using a small plate and when I eat in a restaurant I eat half the amount I'm given but I am still seeing the scale creeping up. I joined Weight Watchers last week and did really well until Thanksgiving. I ate what I wanted and yesterday I intended to go back on it and didn't. Hope I can get back with it today. What a struggle this is. I thought once I was banded I could finally reach goal and stay there. Never thought my band would cause me problems and have to be removed. Hope you can get some help soon.
ReplyDeleteI so feel your pain. Not with losing the band of course, but with the scale creeping up. I know we will both find a new way, a new plan. I have faith in us. :-)
ReplyDeletei am so sorry you're having to go through this... thinking of you....
ReplyDeleteI love you and am here for you if you need me please let me know! I will do all I can from here to help!
ReplyDeleteI know your fear!
I'm so sorry!
ReplyDeleteI love how honest you are about your struggles. We all have them but it takes a strong person to admit to them. Even with my band, I still want to eat more than I should, choose things to eat that i shouldn't, and I struggle over 1/2 the days of each week. Call/text me if you need to talk. I miss you tons! *M*
ReplyDeleteOh sweetie! I know it doesn't seem like it right now but you can totally do this! You are a strong, willful person who can do anything they put your mind to. I know it!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry... Stay strong!
ReplyDeleteJen sweetie.. I want to give you the biggest hug... can I suggest that you focus on one hour at a time, one day at a time..plan plan plan.. and give your self some love.. get through a day and give your self a treat (mani/pedi)... and get back on the scale.> I weigh myself every day sometimes more than once.. you owe this to your self.. hugs
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