Had an abdominal ultrasound this morning. The gal who was giving the ultrasound was super nice- I told her I had a lap band and she got all excited and chatted me up about having one and said she was really interested in getting one (she was an awesome multi-tasker by the way- she was chatting with me about lap band, ultra-sounding my belly, and typing what she was seeing on each picture she took). So I did my lap-band PSA with her and was on my merry way with in 20 minutes or so.
She got the pictures over to my surgeon super fast and his nurse called me by 4pm! Now that is some great service :)
I'm not sure how to feel about the results- they were clear. Healthy, intact gallbladder. Just like last time (which was almost exactly a year ago).
I am happy that I don't have to get my gall bladder removed, but still nervous that they don't seem to know what caused the wierdness on my visit for a fill with Dr. L (May 2nd) and all of the strange symptoms since. I am happy that my last floro looked awesomely normal with Dr. Billing (May 10). I am really happy I have good insurance and I'll only have to pay about 10% of the cost of that ultra sound.
I am not happy that I have zero restriction. I am not happy that I have random chest palpatations/mini anxiety attacks more and more frequently. I guess I am just not happy that my band is not working right now. It hasn't been working for me for a year. I'm mostly not happy with myself for not being more on top of things and going back more frequently for fills and to solve this sooner. I am a typical "avoider". If I avoid it long enough it will go away right?
Confession time!
I ate a McDonalds meal today on my way back to work- 4 chicken nuggets and fries. Yeah, my food obsessed, junk food loving, I don't really give a crap brain won today.
I'm going to do my best to use my new habits, I want to feel better and I can do this brain to win tomorrow, but just in case I need Drazil to have a one way ticket to Care Bear Land on standby with a side of skittles and gumdrops... sigh.
Upper GI on Friday...
Bullshit and Some Truth
7 years ago
You know...my thought on your McDonalds is that it's just calories. Maybe not the best choice nutrition wise, but as long as it's not a regular occurance, it's only calories and probably only about 500 calories of the 100,000,000 calories you will eat in a life time.
ReplyDeleteIt was good to hear there is no gall bladder trouble. Good luck on the upper GI. Let us know how that goes.
I feel ya on the gall bladder thing. I have pains on and off and they've tested but everything looks fine. It sucks not knowing what's wrong.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Cat about McD's...it's just calories in. Not a biggie. Don't beat yourself up over it.
Totally agree on the McDonald's. The nuggets are probably 230 calories and the fries another 230 so not the worst thing! Glad that your band has not slipped.
ReplyDeleteI am happy that the ultrasound was clear. You will get your restriction back. You are much more healthy and fit then you were 2 years ago and you will be even more healthy and fit 2 years from now. We all break down once in a while on a long journey but a little check up and sometimes a time out and you'll be back on track.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you're not having gall bladder issues, hon. Don't be so down on yourself ok? You have done so well and are in a better place than you were when you started, ok? Never forget that!! Things will get better...just have faith in yourself!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that nothing seriously wrong has yet been found. One suggestion: how about talking to a therapist about the anxiety/ heart palpitations? This is a stressful time and it would be good to have support. I am SURE everything is going to come out ok in the end, just hang in there. But some good therapeutic support (emotionally that is) can often really help you with sorting through a difficult physical issue as well. Trust me, I have been there!
ReplyDeleteHopefully: you could find a good therapist right through your insurance if you have good coverage... good luck and keep on posting.
xo