um, I have both hands raised.
I'm a control freak. I am not in denial and I am totally at peace with my freaky-ness. I think the reason I am having such a hard time with my band removal is because I am not in control of any part of it. I have no choice. I can't chose to have another one and be in control of what happens next. I have realized that when I had control of nothing in my life I did have control of my food. I am not used to having someone else call the shots for me. I call my own shots. I don't take no for an answer when it isn't what I want to hear.
I think I am working through this okay, I mean as much as I can be right now- I cried two times at work today- geez I'm a mess. Thank goodness I can close my office door and take a few minutes when I need to.
Thanks for your comments. I've been reading and re-reading them to keep myself in check. Tomorrow is my last day of work for a week, I'll post as soon as I can post op. My appointment was confirmed today- I go in at 8:30am on Thursday and it should take about an hour and a half. My mom, sister, aunt and husband are going to be my nurses. I am so lucky to have a great support system- thanks to all of you for being a big part of what is helping me get through this.
I loves ya!
Bullshit and Some Truth
7 years ago
Yep - I'm a control freak too. Good luck tomorrow, you'll be just fine. I'm so glad to hear you have such a good support system at home. Take it easy and recovery quickly.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you, take care of yourself and get some rest. Glad you have some good nurses there to help.
ReplyDeleteSending good thoughts your way. Let us know how you are doing as soon as you feel up to it.
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking about you tomorrow... I adore you, don't let them remove your funny bone while they're in there. XOXO *M*
ReplyDelete*hugs* That's about all I can offer, good luck tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteGood luck tomorrow! Speedy recovery!
ReplyDeleteGood luck Jen!! You will do terrifically well... hang in there.
ReplyDeleteFrom one control freak to another-- the best thing to do is to take a day at a time and make a plan on a daily basis. If that plan doesn't work, then make a new one.
You are going to heal up and then you'll take the next steps from there. There is clearly nothing that could have been done (in anyone's eyes) to do things differently or better. You were just dealt a bad luck hand with this band thing.
That doesn't mean that you won't continue to be successful in your weight loss journey.
Breathe in and out, take one day at a time and get well first... the rest is going to follow as you progress.
Hugs and smooches and lots of love for a healthy procedure tomorrow.
xo