I know I've been grumpy. debbie downer. complainer. negative nellie. This is the time I need my support group. I am so discouraged.
I am wondering now is this it? Will I ever get below 195 again?
I long for the days when getting on the scale was fun... because I knew all the effort I was putting in would be paying off. Now it seems no matter how hard I try- or not I am somewhere between 199 and 196, occasionally 195.
I am still trying, admittedly some days I try harder than others because it seems I am so easily discouraged that I find myself slipping into an old habit, but then I KNOW that there will be a consequence so I shape up.
I know I'm in a vicious cycle here, I need to put a stick in the spoke and stop the wheel from turning. I'm so sad about not losing that I sometimes skip the "yay I lost 5 lbs on vacation!" post or "I don't know what happened but I lost and I ate like crap" posts b/c I'm just depressed by the fact that I am so stuck.
I'm not giving up, or giving in (well, I did a little bit last night but all I got was a tummy ache that I still have this morning and an extra pound for my morning weigh in) I am sticking with my high protien, low carb way of eating. Good grief though- can I please catch a break and lose a couple of pounds for good?? Can someone sprinkle some of that loser dust on me?
Bullshit and Some Truth
7 years ago
Awww Jen, I'm so sorry. I'm right with you though. No one's goign to leave you - we all have our times where it's harder than others. I was thinking this morning how several months ago I had no restriction but was losing steadily - and I knew it was all about where I was mentally. I was just in a good losing weight place. I would have done just as well without the band - I did what I was supposed to do every day - ate right, exercised right, slept well, drank enough water. The whole thing. And every bit of it was exciting. "hey look at me - look what I'm doing!" And now - I have more restriction, but am just not in a good mental place. It's way too easy to come up with excuses for this or that.
ReplyDeleteFor me, I'm trying to rein it in.. one thing at a time. When faced with bad choices I'm trying to just be more present and do the best I can - and not beat myself up for it. It's not like I'm doing all the wrong things either - for the most part I'm eating well (though it's been seriously hard to get on the treadmill). But - I'm trying to just concentrate on the good things and ignore the bad things. Hopefully we'll both be able to drop below that next marker for good one day soon. I'm about 5lbs different from you and I can't stay below that next number to save my frickin life. It's coming for both of us though - I promise!!
*HUGS*
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with ya sister!! BIG HUGS!
ReplyDeleteI'm SO right there with you. Exactly right there with you. Mentality wise and weight wise. We'll push through. :) We should try to get together for another lunch sometime soon (or heck even a hike or something once the weather gets better!).
ReplyDeleteI know you will find a way. You have in the past and you will now. This is just a rough spot on this ride. Look at how far you have come and all the strides you have made. There will be good days and there will be bad ones (where we eat a load of crap), but on the bad days look at the distance you have made between you and the former you and then vow to start over tomorrow. That's what I do. When I screw up, I say ok, tomorrow is a new day.
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Nope. Sorry. Not giving up on you, not going to unfollow you. Look, we all struggle. Banded or not. Sometimes we go into a mental rest on our laurels phase. We get a little diet fatigue and we get burned out.
ReplyDeleteI went through this myself very recently. And I am now pulling out of it, thanks to the support, love and encouragement of all of my bloggy buddies I am still keeping on. :D
Don't give up. Don't give in. If you have a rough day, or meal or whatever shake it off and get right back on track, the very next minute. You have this, girl. And we have your back.
Plateaus suck. And that's what you've got...a plateau. No one's giving up on you so you can't give up on yourself. Just keep doing what you're doing and the weight WILL Come off. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteTons and tons of hugs!
ReplyDeleteI've been riding a plateau myself for months... but although I don't want to speak too soon, I might have broken through. You will break through it... jusat keep up the good work and your rewards will come eventually. I know it's hard to stay the course when you aren't getting the results you want but the battle of the bulge is more of a war than a battle. Every battle you win gets you closer to winning the war. I love you Roomie! *M*
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