To my boss of all people! But I do trust her and not only is she my boss but a friend, so I guess it wouldn't have been that bad. So here is what happened. I met her yesterday to get some work done on a huge presentation that we are doing in about a week. We decided to go to a mexican resturant for lunch nearby. I was happily munching on my cheese enchilada (I know it is a lot of calories...) when all of the sudden- STUCK! My eyes started watering, the nose started running- I was panicking! She stopped talking and asked if I was ok, I was like "oh, yeah, I think something just went down wrong or something..." I was hoping it would not force me to the restroom. I kept sniffling my nose, and it wasn't going down so I said, "oh I better go blow my nose in the bathroom". I was still pretty stuck, I made it to the bathroom, started sliming a little and then thank goodness, a burp that helped get me unstuck. I hurried back to the table, she asked me again if I was ok, I said "oh, yeah I think there must have been something spicy in that bite!" She said "oh, ok, well I was worried for a second, when your face got a little red and your eyes were watering, then you were in the bathroom for a while... ?" (** at that moment I contemplated just coming clean about my band and what had really just happened**)
I pretty much shrugged it off and started talking about something else. I ended up eating about 2 times as much as I needed (I ate the whole enchilada and a couple chips) because I was worried she was thinking I have some kind of eating disorder. ugh. I really respect my boss (as a boss and as a friend) and I know that if I told her and asked her to keep it to her self she would, I just don't know if I am ready to share that yet. I feel bad for not being brave enough to just tell her. I'm sure that I will at some point- I'm just still in the mind set that people will see it as the "easy way out" and I have worked so damn hard to lose 55 lbs that would just piss me off! There is one other friend at work that I would tell, and I feel guilty about her not knowing too. Maybe I should set aside some time with both of them sometime and just come clean.
I feel like a dirty little liar! 
But you're such a cute liar so it's all good. And if need be - you can sit in hell with me right next to Satan. LOL
ReplyDeletelove the new layout!
ReplyDeleteI'm coming out on facebook today! I've been waiting for my 70lb milestone and I reached it. Most people know about my band except some high school friends, not that we spend much time together anymore...so if they give me crap I will un-friend them! HA! The only reason I want to is that I do feel like a liar! And, I have confidence that this time it is not a temporary loss.
Sorry you got stuck, Yuck!
You have the right to keep this info to yourself! I'm glad you have such a lovely boss, though.
ReplyDeleteIt must be kind of tough keeping it a secret. I don't think I could do it so I'm just going to tell everybody when my time comes. I only see my work people a few times a month because I'm on the road a lot, but even still we do lunches together once in a while and I know they'll notice a big difference in what I'm eating. I could just say I'm dieting, but something Amy W. said really made me think - if people look at me and think I'm losing weight by dieting and get mad at themselves because they can't do it - I would feel like crap. Maybe once I'm successful I can let someone else know how much the band help me so it can help them.
ReplyDeleteugh.. that is my nightmare.. I am going away for a week with about 8 of my work colleagues.. it's bad enough I have one person bugging me about what diet I am on.. but I don't want to get stuck in front of them.. I am now cognizant of the chew chew chew rule.. so that will have to be my out.. PS.. love your blog layout..
ReplyDeleteOOPS lol That could have a been a tricky situation. You did well tho - even if you did delve into white lie territory (and who the heck hasn't.. not one of us is free of that one!!)
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel....but you are not a liar because it isn't as if they have asked you outright 'do you have a band?' and you have lied. You just said that your food got stuck and well that's what it did. I am so NOT into telling people because I have lived with their judgements ever since. Sure I feel guilty with a few friends but at the end of the day I owe it to myself to do what is right regardless of what they might say...Do what is right for you ...best of luck
ReplyDeleteUmmm...my dear you ARE NOT A LIAR! Nothing that you said was untrue and not to mention it is none of anyones business! You need to do what feels right to you and when/if the time comes to tell those people it will but in no way should you feel pressured to do so. Oh and if those idiots really think that the band "is an easy way out" they don't deserve to be your friend. Seriously who in their right mind would think that having the band would be easy. If anyone has an issue with that they can come talk to me! So there! Okay, I will back down now, so sorry!
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